No cash and no smoking

Well, right now I am sitting in Math class and I’m wishing that I was somewhere else.  My mom called this morning and woke me up but that’s ok.  We talked for a while, just about Adam and Sarah and Jacklyn.  But we only talked for about 20 minutes because I had to come to this gay ass class.  Speaking of, Jacklyn called me last night.  She was talking about how she saw some good looking girl.  I’m trying to not worry about it though. I would be so mad if she left me for a girl.  That would definitely suck a fat dick.  Anyway, I told her that I might come down this weekend, and she seemed happy.

I really need to get a job because I have to get some money.  I think I am going to take some things to a pawn shop.  Probably that green fluorescent light and my class ring. Maybe Steve and Tim will take me.  Hopefully.  Anyway I love my new CD player.  Sure it’s not that high tech but it does sound good.  My mom also said that she’ll probably send some money next time she writes.  I really hope she does.  She never sent my graduation check so maybe she’ll remember about that.  I really need some cash.  I need $35 for my phone card.  I need to give Adam and Sarah $20 for their phone card.  I’m gonna need about $30 for a mum on homecoming.  I need money for cigarettes and laundry.  Oh well, I’ll just sell some things.  I’m probably going to sell some CD’s also. I think I’m going to go back to sleep because this class is so fucking gay. On the gay score of 1-10 this class would be about a 30. Pretty gay, huh.

Andrew was asking me if on the 23rd, I wanted to bring Jacklyn down so we could trip out with him and his girlfriend.  I kinda want to but I just wrote a letter to Jacklyn telling her how stupid it was to do that shit, so I’m not sure if that’ll happen.  I kinda want to but I really don’t want to get involved id drugs.  Just thinking about doing drugs scares me. Sure I’ve smoked out more times that I can remember but that’s behind me now.  I really think I’m going to quite.  I also need to quit smoking, or at least get enough money to support my habit.  Anyway, I want to try acid but at the same time, I don’t.  I don’t know maybe it’ll happen, but I’m not going to try to make it happen.  If it’s there and I feel like doing it then, hey alright, but if I don’t then, oh well, no loss to me.

I really want to see Jacklyn, hopefully I’ll get to spend time with her this weekend because I really never got to say goodbye.  Andrew is going to Chaletsville so that’ll work out because Steve and Tim are going to stay here this weekend.  Hopefully we’ll be able to party.  You never know.


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